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Jarvis using chopstick to eat his favourite fried carrot cake…..

Mid Autumn Lantern Carnival at Chinese Garden 

Mega Lanterns made of different materials featuring World Wonders including - The Great World Of China, Taj Mahal, Leaning Tower of Pisa (is made of 10,000 pieces of ceramic utensils), Blue Mosque, Pyramid, Mayan Temple, Eiffel Tower.

lotus fairy lantern                                                                                 

fruits, insects, flower and others lanterns                                                          

Somedays, i was teaching Jarvis : daddy is father, mummy is mother, por por is grandmother …..

Jarvis asked : Then me ?

Me replied : You are my son.

Jarvis : I am sun… I am moon….

Both me and lao gong LOL ….

Finanly today we brought Jarvis went to watch his 1st movie from cinema. So glad that my little monster can sit still and enjoyed the whole movie… We choose to watch ‘Monster House’ as he likes animated movies.

Venturing into the cinema for the first time can be a scary experience for him, so we told him what to expect about the cinema ~ that though it’s dark, it won’t be scary, becoz mummy and daddy will be around. The volume will be loud, and screen is big . .

We told him that there are many others people who will be watching the same movie at the cinema, so he cant talk during the movie, stand up and walk about, or cry …

Wow… so glad that we have a happy first time at the cinema.. Jarvis doesn’t scare at all and he sit still alone Ohh not forget the popcorn….and enjoyed the whole movie. He even asked us to keep quiet ~ "no talking shhh!!!" when me talking with hb… wahahahahaha…

This morning Jarvis was humming 世上只有妈妈好

I heard he said : Daddy & mummy go work, 像根草 lah

Daddy & mummy no go work, 像个宝 lah

“Boy, why are you saying that?”

He just give me his innocent look with smile……..

一次默默的放弃，放弃一个心仪却无缘份的朋友；放弃某种投入却无收获的感情；放弃某种心灵的期望；放弃某种思想。这时就会生出一种伤感，然而这种伤感并不妨碍自己去重新开始，在新的时空内将音乐重听一遍，将故事在说一遍！因为这是一种自然的告别与放弃，它富有超脱精神，因而伤感得美丽！

曾经有种感觉，想让它成为永远。过了许多年，才发现它已渐渐消逝了。然后才懂：原来握在手里的，不一定就是我们真正拥有的；我们所拥有的， 也不一定就是我们真正铭刻在心的！其实人生很多时候需要自觉的放弃！

世间有太多的美好的事物。对没有拥有的美好，我们一直在苦苦的向往与追求。为了获得，而忙忙碌碌。其实自己真正的所需要的，往往要在经历许多年后才会明白，甚至穷尽一生也不知所终！而对已经拥有的美好，我们又因为常常得而复失的经历，而存在一份忐忑与担心。夕阳易逝的叹息、花开花落的烦恼、人生本是不快乐的！

因为拥有的时候，我们也许正在失去，而放弃的时候，我们也许又在重新获得。对万事万物，我们其实都不可能有绝对的把握。如果刻意去追逐与拥有，就很难走出患得患失的误区。

我不是因你而来到这个世界，却是因为你而更加眷恋这个世界！如果能和你在一起，我会对这个世界满怀感激，如果不能和你在一起，我会默默的走开，却仍然不会失掉对这个世界的爱和感激。感激上天让我与你相遇与你别离，完成上帝所创造的一首诗！” 生命给了我们无尽的悲哀，也给来我们永远的答案。于是，安然一份放弃，固守一份超脱！不关红尘世俗的生活如何变迁，不管个人的选择方式如何，更不管握在手中的东西轻重如何，我们虽逃避也勇敢，虽伤感也欣慰！

我们像往常一样向生活的深处走去，我们像往常一样在逐步放弃，又逐步坚定！
   

有一种感觉总在失眠时，才承认是“相思”；
有一种缘分总在梦醒后，才相信是“永恒”；
有一种目光总在分手时，才看见是“眷恋”；
放弃也是一种美丽
有一把伞撑了很久，雨停了也不肯收；
有一束花闻了许久，枯萎了也不肯丢；
执着，是不悟。

但，我认为生命中总有一些值得坚持的事，总有一些值得等待的人，让我们懂得珍惜，懂得付出，并因此而快乐幸福。

喜欢这样的坚持，有时即使会痛，我会痛并快乐着。
然而，世事变化让我开始学着小心分辨有所坚持和一味坚持的区别。
记得有人告诉过我一句话：我挽留，表示我珍惜。这是有所坚持。
当全心全意地付出之后、当默默地坚持与等待之后、当应有的宽容与忍耐之后，想挽留的仍然会走，再坚持就是一味坚持。

在爱情中，坚持就是以真心换真情。倘若什么都换不回来，坚持就是守住自己。

留下，不代表还爱；离开，不代表不爱。得到，未必是幸；失去，也未必是不幸。

只要，一段感情之后，我们仍然相信爱，仍然可以去爱，仍然爱自己。
爱自己的人，会不断地追求完善，会对自己的感情和行为负责。只有这样，才有资格去爱别人，才值得被爱。

但是，没有自律地爱自己是危险的，很容易变成自私。
“火光燃亮的时候，时间停止，我们是自由的，可以说平时不敢说的话，做平时不敢做的事；火光熄灭，一切就象没有发生过，时间继续。”当苏菲玛索在＜心火＞里说这句话的时候，我相信她在跳动的火光中，摆脱了世俗的束缚，燃亮了爱的信念。坎坷的爱情是容易惊世骇俗，但那样的爱需要更多的勇气。

如果不能勇敢地爱，就勇敢地离开；如果不能宽容，就大胆地去恨。
恨不是不爱，冷漠才是不爱。

爱，好象很酸的字眼，我视它为一切美好的正直的善良的可爱的情感的统称。

因为它太可爱，往往成为幌子，背后隐藏着贪欲和占有。。。。。。
别让爱欺骗了自己，也欺骗了别人。

总之，敢为爱坚持为爱付出勇气的人，一定会得到该有的幸福！

手握得太紧,反而什么也得不到~~~

Gugu’s mother was past away when she was still a 6/7 YO girl. Her father has to work for the living got no choice but to put her at his sister (gugu address her as er da gu) place. After few yrs, her father has re-married but I dun know what the reason she wasn’t bring home by her father or herself doesn’t want to go home but continues staying with her er da gu. That is why gugu was staying with us. Her er da gu is my beloved grandma…Grandma love her like own daughter. My dad sibling love her as own sister… so all of us address as gugu as she is our youngest auntie.

Gugu is a quiet person. She isn’t study well but she is a hardworking girl. Grandma n my papa were running hawker business. They were selling ‘yong tau foo’ & ‘ice-kacang’ and gugu was their great helper while all of us were still young at that time. At home, she help out with all the housework too. After her secondary school, she stopped and learning sewing skill. Like others youngster, she has her dream…. she wanted to leave our village and find a new life in city, therefore she went to KL and find a job in a garment factory. After few years she knows a guy and get married shortly. A lot of them were discourage her for marry to this guy but she insist.

Gugu found out this man was having affair with a divorce lady staying next block when she was at her 5^th month pregnancy. That was her 1^st pregnancy and she tolerated all the nonsense n nuisance from this idiot husband. That idiot always came home n tell gugu how he make love with the bitch and how he can get his sex satisfaction but gugu can’t it provide him…that idiot still lay hand on gugu when can’t get money from her . . . The family treat her as a maid, throw all the housework to her even when she was pregnant . . . .

Gugu bring her few months old daughter back during the next CNY after she gave birth. She had decided to divorce with the idiot man. After that she was staying together with my er gu at home town.. . she bring home some sewing job and earn some pocket money. The rest was taking care by my er gu…When her daughter going to primary school, she decided to leave her dd with my er gu and went to KL to find a job so that can earn more money and save for the dd future education.

Gugu knows gu zhang thru people introducing / match making by then … gu zhang is a friendly and responsible guy. The only thing is he older then gugu 11years. But this is not the problem as long as he is a caring n loving guy. Gugu married to him with all of our blessing. We are happy she can married to a good guy finally. And gugu give birth to a baby boy for him. Gu zhang love n dote his stepdaughter too.

Yesterday morning, gu zhang was knocked down by a car when on his way to work.. He then past away .… why gugu’s life is so bad, so bitter, her way is so uneven . . . .her dd is 15 n son is only 7YO now… she lost her husband forever . . .

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I cant continue n control my tear again…… 

As per written in the consent form, childcare centre have organized a field trip to Fireflies Health Farm on today. The objectives are to let children learn the types of plants, the growth and parts of the plants and thier growth sites through the participating in the experiences provided.

Departure time will be at 9.30am. They will tour around the vegetable farm. Estimated will be return to cc by 12.45pm. An amount of $5 is collected for the expenditure of the trip. And its includes the purchase of vegetables.

Now then I know fireflies also can be found in Singapore. But i still wandering how the children explore it since they are going during day time…hmm…..

Fireflies Health Farm address :- Lot 75 Lim Chu Kang, Lane 2

fire flies health farm

Map to Kranji Countryside

Jarvis’s drawing n colouring skill is improving. No more adding unnecessary colour into his colour page. He will follow n colour within the border line of the picture. He can draw small or big object although sometime will be abit out of shape but still can tell what it is like.

A month ago, his teacher feedback to us during the teacher parent meeting Jarvis still cannot count object to ten but now he is able to mastery it very well. And yes he can spell his name "Jarvis" and write it on a paper

The most important is he will shows concern for someone in distress. That night I was not feeling well. When we were laying on bed about to sleep, I told him : "mummy got stomachache" Altough it was dark in the room but i still can see his face suddently look worry and place his hand on my tummy and asked me :" Need to go and see doctor" I told him no need, i just need to rest and you be good boy okay, let us sleep now. He replied ok and close his eyes. But I was peeping him under my bloster, he did open his eye on n off to check on me quietly, he still look worry. When he saw me take away my bloster and look at him, he asked: "mummy, u ok?" I ensured to him again that i am fine then he was falling asleep afterward….I’m touch, and i’m sure that I love him and he love me too….

I am content..